I mean, I know what happened, I know what I willingly gave up, I know what disappeared from my life, I know what I've accomplished (I think). But looking back at these last two years of my life, how that time began, to what it has become now, I am in awe of where it has led me; The people it has led me to.
So much has happened during this time. I have grown, I have learned, I have evolved.
Sometimes, it takes a strong look at a physical place to really see the measure of what you've accomplished.
I went from this:
To this:
It's not much, nor is it by any means "perfect", but it is mine. None of it existed at the time the first photo was taken. I moved in with a bed, my clothes and books. I have found every piece of furniture I own, most of it I've refinished, a lot of it for free...and thankfully I can now look at this room, my home and my life with pride, because I worked for every single minute and every single inch.
But mostly?
I just feel blessed.
I feel like all of the hard decisions I have been faced with, the gut instincts I didn't ignore and all of the choices I made, brought me to this very moment, this place in my life where I can take a look around and feel as though I am right where I need to be. I am surrounded by people that I love and that love me in return. I am treated with kindness and respect. The people in my life do generous and thoughtful things for me, and appreciate me when I do the same for them. I like who I am and the person I have become.
And I guess that's a hell of a lot. More than some might ever get, you know?
Well, and this:
Some might never get that, but, I did :)
7 comments:
This post makes me smile.
So does this: "I'm a hopeless romantic that will most likely end up single for the rest of my life because I enjoy my own company so much."
That pretty much sums it up :)
Lauralee
Most of the furniture I have I got from someone else. Did my first refinishing project on an antique piano that I paid $200 for that now would sell for thousands. It was olive green when I got it, and that paint was over a layer of white. Both were dasterdly to it.
Tung oil is my new found friend. :)
Thanks, Lauralee :)
Amen to both.
PS-I'm mad at you, you were so cute I had to stalk your blog stuffs and just lost an hour. You're awesome :)
And Randy, Tung oil huh?
::runs to Google::
wow, you've done such an amazing job with your home! It's so beautiful! I wish I were more into decorating my home because I think most people would think it looks pretty boring!
Notes She Wrote
This post was so sweet and heart felt. It sounds like you are in a good place in all respects. Love your decor.
Yep tung oil. It's pretty easy to work with (don't let drips dry!). Just rub on and wipe off. It just takes a while to get a finish build up because you have to let it dry between coats.
Stripping the paint was a huge chore though. Nothing simple about it but we did use some stripper that worked pretty well. It was applied and then covered with paper. Don't remember where I got it or what it's called unfortunately.
Wow you've made this spot your very own and it is beautiful!!
Happy for you and Im following you in friendship. (purehunnybee)
Deborah :)
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